Our vulnerabilities gnaw at our sense of self and make one feel that they are obvious. That is absolutely common and it is no surprise that you feel that way. But do understand that you are not alone in this. I rarely meet anyone without insecurities and troubles of some sort. [His breath hitches and he pauses for a moment to take a swallow of water.]

Honor is important, as is holding oneself to a high standard. Unfortunately even the greatest of us fail to meet our own marks sometimes. And if, for example, a man is forced against the grain of his own ideals...it is deeply traumatic.

Ah, you do. Well, in the interest of full disclosure, I have a Warden. She is not well liked, but speaking with her has been...illuminating.